Smelly Chic

Okay. I'm new to this thing. this is my first entry. I plan to be brutitaly honest in this thing. I guess I should start my first entry explaining how HS begin in my life up to this point. I guess it must have started getting really bad when I was like 23 or 24. I thought at first that I was getting boils. Not so. These were like super boils. I complained to my family doctor about them and he just gave me a bunch of antibiotics. Of course it didn't work. Skip two years and my breast are scarred, my underarms look like a bowl of noodles, and my crotch is just...well you know. I'm freaked out about having sex because I don't want anybody to think I have some sort of STD. Then the leaking starts. it smells freakin' horrible. I'm taking baths and scrubbing myself until I bleed. I'm an English major so I do what I do best. I get on the Internet and I research. Finally last year I come across the Mayo Clinic website and I see something that fits everything I have. I feel a little less freakish. I print it out and take it to a derrmotoligist. He confirms it but has no cure. AHHHHHH!

They wanna cut on me. I'm like hell no. Not yet anyways. There has to be a better way. After many doctors who don't even know what the hell hs is I have finally stumbled across Dr. Richardson. He gave me some kind of creame that I put on instead of deoderant. It's great. No nasty HS smell at least. I bath in Hibeclens and a Oilatum cleansing bar everyday. More meds. Not cured but at least it is helping and one of my scarrs is getting smaller. The one under my arm that looks like a sausage.

My job is horrible to me about HS. They say I'm faking so I can get time off work and special treatment. Sometimes I wannna flash my crotch and say "fake this bitches!" I can't do it though. The economy is screwed up so I reallllllly need this job. I am so broke from the medical bills. I don't even have food to eat today. The co-pays for doctors and medication is killing me. I spend almost $200 a month in doctor fees and medication. I hope they find a cure for this junk.