Still Struggling

Well, I go to the dermatologist every two weeks now. I don't know if the Keflex is working or not because I still see these ugly scars and have this oily leakage. If that isn't enough to mess up your day what is? Was doing some research earlier and saw that this guy got cancer from long term hs. Wow! This thing is scarier than I thought. Everyone at my job keep suggesting I go on disability. I'm 26 and I'll be 27 Monday! I can't sit at home and wait for a check! Fixed income! I would go complete insane. I have to prove these people wrong but I'm starting to feel stupid for showing up to work with Lortabs in my system still making me wobbly. I actually fell yesterday while coming up the steps. Even the kids knew I wasn't quite right. They can be such assholes at work, that is, my supervisor. They knew I wasn't feeling well but they don't care. Long as they get to leave early at my expense, they are A-ok.

I have a new job coming. Really community oriented. I love it but I don't start until next month. Summer is nearly here. The Alabama heat is why I dread having hs. I hope this salve stuff work cause I really don't wanna be at the office smelling like hotdog water. God help me.