New Meds

May 31, 2011 I began taking Enbrel. The Enbrel comes in injections in something like an epi pen that people take for allergic reactions. My mom took me to the pharmacy to pick up the medicine. She hands me this big, padded white bag with an ice pack inside to keep the medicine cold. They gave me a month worth of injections and off to the Dermo I went. The nurse gave me instructions on how to do the injections myself. I was so scared though. I am thanking God that I can’t see the needle. She push the head of the pin against my stomach and I feel absolutely nothing. I only knew it was going into my body because I would see the medicine moving out through the little clear window. The pen clicks and she pulls it away. Maybe this won’t be so bad.

Tonight I am nervous and anxious. I admit that all the side effects have me really scared about my health. I want this medicine to work so badly. I pray it does and I pray it doesn’t make me worst off. I want my armpits to stop hurting, my pubes to shrink, and the leaking to stop. God has no limitations so I have to keep the faith.